Moms know

It completely amazes me sometimes how in tune I am with this little guy.

For example,just a little bit ago, he started fussing at an unusual time. Immediately, I think “i bet he would be.more comfortable on his tummy”
Let me add that we’ve had him only sleeping on his back for months now.

So I walk over to his crib, and sure enough there ur is, half rolled over, struggling to flip to his belly. Mommas hands lift him completely over, and magically his fussing stops, and he is instantly sleeping like a rock.

He snuggled his head right in his sheets, sprawled out his tiny legs as if he could say “ahhh, now I’m comfy”

Wow! Why did I think that this is what he needed? I don’t know, but it has something to do with the energy of the changing season, the temperature of the room, and trusty motherly instincts.

Don’t ever think your mom never knew you, because she can probly read your mind. Id like to think I will always understand my babies no matter how old they get, or how much they change.

I know for a fact that I will love them unconditionally even if I don’t

Oh the joy, where do I begin?

Each morning I am awakened by your little struggles and whines, and immediately I’m reminded that you are here with me. How did I get so lucky to be your momma?

I love your smile, you’d laugh, your overwhelmed-with- excitement face, and especially your jibber jabber.

I need you more than I ever thought I would need any person. Without you my life would not be whole. You are only 4 months old and you have grown exponentially. Im so proud of how much you are learning.

YouvE given me a greater purpose in this life. I can face a new day because I get to hold you and hug you and comfort you and watch you grow.

You are so smart, so sweet, so funny, so unbelievably adorable.

Every day while you were in my womb I prayed for you. One prayer was that you might bring joy to those around you, and you absolutly overflow our hearts with joy. You are my very own good and perfect gift from heaven above.

I love you with every ounce of my heart and more.

Love, momma

4 days til dd

Waiting…waiting…waiting..waiting.

Its getting pretty lame waiting this out since I was born ready for this day.

I’m well prepared, bring on the pain.

It’s hard to remember that Gods timing is perfect. He is in control, not me. I need to Find peace in his hands Instead I’m frustrated.. the past Month has been the hardest lesson in patience.

* deep breath* it won’t be long now …

Day 271

Oh my.9 days to go, I certainly hope baby doesn’t make us wait that long. I feel the weakest I’ve ever felt waking up today, I can’t believe it. It’s almost feels like Ive out all night partying, except its been 9 months and the queezy tummy is not quite as bad yet. But the aches and pains are comparable if not worse.my tummy has been hurting, they may be mild contractions but not often enough to worry. I pray I make it through this work day. It’s going to take every ounce of me to push through. Just like them partyin’ days.

Swollen feet.26 days to go.

Today the swelling in my feet was pretty bad. I hope this does not progress. As I think it causes baby stress.

Tomorrow I see a dentist to hopefully take away this tooth pain. I’ve been dealing with it for weeks now and its awful. I hope this also is not adding stress to the baby.

Dear Lord please heal my body, from my tooth and achy jaw, to my swelling feet. Amen.