The day you were born.

You entered the world and brought me to tears last Tuesday night. You are Heaven sent, and bring me so much joy everytime i look in your little face. I thank God for letting me be your mommy.

I’ll try to tell you how you arrived, even though the expierience is kind of hazy now that you are here. The details just kind of faded to memory once you were in my arms.

Last Monday morning, we woke up for our 41 week appointment, hoping for good news. We expected to hear that i was dialated more and that you would be arriving soon! Well, no dice there. Sort of discouraged, the midwife said that your heart rate was a bit low and that we should rush over to the hospital for monitoring.

In a rush, we stopped home, grabbed a few things, and left for the hospital. When we arrived they hooked me up to a machine to monitor your heartbeat and any possible contractions. Then they ran some more tests, took my blood and such. We also did an ultra sound to check out the fluid levels in the uterus to make sure you were safe in there.

After all the testing, we discussed with the midwife about all of the options and risks if we were to opt to “wait it out” as opposed to getting induced. Daddy and i were all for letting you come in God’s timing. we were struggling with the idea of “forcing” you out. When the midwife explained to us that there is a greater risk for problems if we wait, and that it was best to try to induce, we agreed. We wanted the safest route and the best for you.

So around 6pm they issued a 12hour medicine to try to soften and thin the cervix. When we woke in the morning we were disappointed to hear that it did not take effect. The next step was to use this 4 hour pill to do the same sort of thing. We thought we would still have a long wait because we were told that this 4 hour procedure may have possibly need to be repeated. Every dose takin about 4 hours, and sometimes they have to use up to 5 doses on women. thats a total of 20 hours we could potentially have to wait before my cervix would be ready. 

The 4 hour medicine was issued around 11am, and we waited it out. we thought for sure that we would need a second dose because my cervix seemed to be quite stubborn. The nurse even confirmed that women hardly ever just use 1 dose, its almost ALWAYS at least 2. So we were good and ready for what laid ahead. We were sure to be waiting 8 hours or more before they could start doing pitocin.

After about 4 hours i started to have mild contractions, when they checked me i was 100% thinned and they didnt need to do another dose!!! Since i was having contractions all on my own, we didnt need to have pitocin because it was unnecessary! I was all on my own! God had answered our prayers. We werent going to need the artificial hormones to get my contractions going. 

When the time got shorter and more painful i became very emotional. It hurt very badly, and my whole family was watching. You name it, they were there. Aunts,cousins, bro, sister, mom, dad, mother-in-law, father-in-law… they were all there and i was overwhelmed. Matthew had to let a nurse know that i was feeling very uncomfortable being “on stage” and in pain. All eyes were on me and i felt like i couldnt handle them staring at me while i was going through the pain.

The family then took a backseat in the waiting room and a couple people at a time came back to check on me. Immdiatly after they left i was issued the epidural. That was around 5 pm. just 3 hours later i felt as if you were ready to come out. Even though i was numb, i still felt the weight of your little body easing your way out. We called for the midwife to check me and sure enough i was 10cm and ready to go!

Once we got all set up and i was ready to push, it seemed like a  matter of minutes and i heard your cry. I can’t describe the overflow of joy and tears that came at that moment. It was like God had reached into my body and pulled you into the world and said “here is my gift to you” and his prescence was very apparent in that room. He was with me everystep of the way. He molded and made you with his very hands while you were inside me. I feel God whispering to me everytime i hold you, and he says “This is love, and i love this baby more than you do”. I can’t believe it. How could he love this baby more than me!? 

You arrived at 8:56pm at 7lbs 11oz and 20 & 3/4 inches long. From that minute on, my life has become more important, and my days are filled with so much more joy. You are the greatest blessing ive ever recieved. Your Birth was the greatest miracle ive ever expierienced.

I love you more than anything, and would move mountains for you. You are an angel and i couldn’t ask for a better son. you are perfect, and you will always be my little baby,no matter how big you get. I love you so much and i can’t wait to watch you grow and expierience things. Your face is the most beautiful thing ive ever seen and i can’t hardly believe that i get to be your mommy. You are the greatest gift from God and i will thank him all the days of my life for giving you to me.

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